Engagement.

I've thought about this way to much. Obviously, since I'm a girl. I told Nicholas I wouldn't live with him until we were engaged. And now it's just the waiting game until he asks me. The problem is, I want it to be perfect. This is a story I'll be telling over & over & over again. I want everything to be amazing! First thing is date. One thing I know, I definitely don't want it to be on Valentines Day. Even though me & Nick do have a cute kind of past story about Valentines Day. I think proposals on Valentines Day are way to obvious, and way to cliche. I think I would actually really like a Christmas Day proposal. I can't imagine what present Nick would get me. I have absolutely everything I could ever want or need. I know I'm like my mom and I'm probably one of the worst people to get presents for, because anytime I want or need anything... I get it for myself. But then just a random day would be cute too. I would want it planned and cute, but not so planned that I knew exactly what was going to happen. I don't want to know it's coming. I want to be blind sided. I want to be surprised. I think the biggest thing is what he says. It has to be so heart felt. It has to be amazing. It has to take my breath away. Nick is a song writer, a lyrical genius. I expect so much more from him then I would from someone else. One of the most amazing proposals, well two of the most amazing proposals are from Pride & Prejudice.

" I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. I came to Rosings with the single object of seeing you, I had to see you. I have fought against my judgement, my families expectations, the inferiority of birth, my rank and circumstances. And all these things I am willing to put aside and ask you to end my agony. I love you. Most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand."

" You must know, surely you must know it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me, you spoke with my aunt last night and it has taught me to hope... which I have scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed. But one word from you will silence me forever.... If however, your feelings have changed. I will have to tell you, you have bewitched body and soul. and i love, i love, i love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on."



Wow. So amazing. I got goosebumps. I want something so amazing and poetic like this. If only my life was a movie and I could always have perfect amazing piano back round music. Anyways, next important. Is the ring. The ring MUST be perfect. Of course I've been looking on pinterest. And found some great ones. I think my favorite one EVER is this.

http://www.pinterest.com/shannybabe7/engagement-rings/

Here's a link to all the rings I've pinned that I like :) I'm a fan of a small basic (or vintage detailing) band. and a big rock :) I really hope Nick stalks my blog, or asks my friend, or something before buying me a ring. I go with the Sex & The City phrase. Wrong ring, wrong guy.

Engagement, Living together, Marriage, Children.

That's my order.
I want to live with Nicholas. DESPERATELY. as you could guess from my last post. I NEED to get out of my house. For 298732987432897 reasons. I want to live with Nick more then I've ever wanted to live with anyone. I can't imagine ever getting sick of him. I want to be around him ALL THE TIME. But I do have a disclaimer. I want a ring on my finger first. I want to live with him before we're actually married. But I do what that commitment that we both now that it's what we ultimately want and are headed for. But I want it to happen NOW! The only somewhat time we've talked about it that he's given me a time-frame he told me A YEAR! A YEAR! That may sound reasonable under different circumstances. But I don't know if I could handle a year of doing what were doing. I need more time with him. I need to sleep with him every night. I need to wake up to him every morning. At the same time I don't want to rush any commitment that he's not ready for on his part. Which is exactly why i'm telling this to my blog and not him. But I'm so ready for it NOW! gahhh.

It's been awhile.

Hey bloggie.
It's been awhile since I've blogged. I've been really busy with Nicholas. And it's kind of awkward to try and blog about him while he's sitting right next to me! hahah. Me & Nick have been official since Oct 20th. Which isn't long at all. But i'm so desperately in love with him. I've literally NEVER felt like this before. I can go on with all these other cliche quotes that I always thought were bull shit. But they're really not. Sometimes you DO really JUST KNOW. I love him more then I have EVER loved ANYONE. In my entire life. He IS my other half. I depend on him. I feel incomplete without him. I hate being without him. For even a second. I hate when he's at work. I hate when i'm at work. I hate when I can't sleep with him. I just want to spend EVERY SECOND WITH HIM! I'm freaking OBSESSED! haha. In a good romantic cute way. haha. Really though. He just left, and I already miss him. I would give up EVERYTHING for him. I would do ANYTHING for him. And I know most of these things should be accustom in a relationship, and i've been in plenty. But I've never felt like I was completely content with them. I always thought in the back of my mind, what about my ex boyfriend, what about guys I haven't got the chance to meet, I always somewhat second guessed being with them. I somewhat saw myself marrying them, but just because that's what is expected when you're together for a certain amount of time. I find myself fantasizing about mine & nicks life together. And how we'd be living together, getting married, having children. I CRAVE that life with him. I'm actively trying to get there. I'm so in love with him I can't even try to attempt to describe it.