10 things.

Name 10 things that no one knows about you.

Well, I doubt I could name 10 things that NO ONE knows.
But I'll do my best.

1. I'm ADDICTED to washing my hands.
I wash my hands AT LEAST 15 times a day.

2. I get anxiety when I'm trying to clean, I literally have to stop myself and just focus on one thing at a time.

3. I'm really self conscious about my body ever since I had my daughter. Nothing screws up your body more than having a kid.

4. I pride myself in being able to spell and type in proper English. And it drives me nuts when people spell wrong. Or use letters for words. "u & r or l8r." annoying things like that.

5. Ever since I can remember I've always been in love with music, and acting. I've always wanted to be an actress or singer.

6. I over think and over analyze everything. Especially things boys do.

7. I really want to move to another state, where i know no one. And no one knows me.

8. I go through stages where I hate my phone, and won't look at it for days at a time. Or even when it's near me, and I know I've got texts, I'll ignore them. Or read them, and never reply.

9. I go through similar stages with facebook, where I'll "deactivate" my account for days at a time. I'm in one of those stages now, which is why I'm resorting to many blog posts.

10. I'm super co-dependant. And go from guy, to guy, to guy. And I always move WAY to fast. And get attached WAY to easily. And I always end up getting hurt, but then just doing the same thing over and over again. I'm trying to work on that.

11. I have 2 phobias. 1. the garbage disposal. If something falls in, i will make someone else get it out. I refuse to put my hand in that death trap. 2. cheese graters. hopefully a psychotic killer doesn't stalk my blog...

Pictures.

Messing around with makeup, and camera effects.
let me know if you like any.

1st one's my favorite.

Move list....

My movie list blog post is definitely the most "up kept". The only problem is, it doesn't matter how many movies I watch, I'm not making a dent. For every movie I watch, I add at least 2 more. Not to mention my recent obsession with Pawn Stars, tends to take up a lot of the time I have where I could actually be watching a movie. Not to mention I follow many other shows. My DVR is over flowing.

Dear Emery,

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger,
And it's so quiet in the world tonight.
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming.
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light.
To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret.
I'd give all I have, honey if you could stay like that.

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up.
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little.
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up.
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple.
I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart.
And no one will desert you, just try to never grow up.

Pet Peeves.

1. Being lied to.
2. Being stood up.
3. Being ditched.
   YES. There is a difference, being stood up is being ditched without ever being told that the other person isn't coming. Being ditched is when someone who has plans with you, & then let's you know last minute that it's not happening.
4. Having my phone calls ignored.
5. When someone stops talking to me completely, and never tells me why.
6. Being itchy.
7. Repeating myself.
8. Hypocrites.
9. Perverts, guys that constantly take everything sexual.
10. When someone re-sends the same text when you don't respond quick enough.
11. When a mother calls their daughter "sister".
12. When the tiolet paper is put on the roll the wrong way.
13. When my DVR doesn't record my shows, or records like 46 minutes? instead of the full hour. Or the show runs long so I miss the last couple minutes.
14. When people don't use turn signals.
15. When people forget to turn their turn signals off.
16. People that can't spell, or talk like idiots. example: aY gUrL. u r sO hawt. The word "you & are" are really not long people.
17. When people have really bad b.o.
18. When people have bad breath.
19. When a guy's a bad kisser.
20. Being called "dude."
    
    Well. That's all I can think of for now :) haha.

Irony.

Is this just me? Or does this happen to other people also?

It seems that everyone I ever kissed, dated, or liked in high school, or jr. high is INCREDIBLY UGLY. Someone will bring someone up in random conversation "Oh yeah I saw so&so yesterday." - "Yeah, I dated him in high school." - "seriously... sick." Hahahaha. It just seems to happen to me that way. All of these people were attractive when I liked them. But now there nasty, ugly, druggies, or pathetic white trash smokers. Or something of that nature. I'm embarassed of almost everyone I've dated. Hahahahahhaha.

Now, of course on the flip side. Guys that I REJECTED in high school, for whatever reason.....are now gorgeous, smart, funny nice guys. Husband type material. Be nice to nerds, you're going to end up wanting to marry one someday.

Dream Journal.

I decided I wanted to keep a dream journal, since I can type fast- and hate my hand writing. I decided I'll just put them in a blog. They probably won't make sense to anyone else. So it's more for me, and so I can find out what they mean? But if you'd like to read them, and try to understand them... You're more than welcome :) haha. I'm going to try and do it as soon as I wake up, so I can remember most of the details.

9/26 Sunday night.
Me and a girl friend, someone who was a good friend to me, but in my dream her appearance wasn't anyone I knew. Me and her were at discovery park and decided to eat some Razzles, and once we ate them we went back in time. The first one we took, we went back to 1983 to some kind of foot ball game at discovery park. There were guys with blue & white coloring on their faces. And lots of "83's" And my girl friend said that we needed to party like it was 1983, because it was. Haha. Then the next thing I remember is that we started going forward in time, and I was in 6th grade, but was living it out through my 6th grade self. I was in the car with my girl friend and we had been staying in our 6th grade self for awhile. We tried to eat the Razzles to move forward in time, but nothing was working. We tried eating more Razzles, and Orbit gum? Everything I could find in my pocket. But nothing was having us move forward in time. We assumed because we had stayed so long at one time, and we would just have to live our life's from then on. But we were both really upset we couldn't go back to our original time. And that's all I can remember. :) hahha.

My interpretation.
I'm assuming that this dream is about a current relationship I have with a guy. We both like each other, but we're not together. We got in a fight Sunday night. So I'm assuming my dream was in reaction to that. My self conscious mind is telling me that I'm stuck in one place with him, and can't move forward? Or it could also be representing my life. I'm still at home, living with my mother, haven't started any kind of schooling yet. Been at the same job for 3 years. It could just be representing my life entirely. That I'm stuck at one place and can't move forward?